Let it die

Yesterday I started my french and german classes. I have the will and motivation necessary to start to learn these two again. I confess I was surprised by one thing, I though that by now I wouldn't be able to have such a good knowledge on those languages, but my head was then flooded by words and expressions that only needed a map! So here we go! And tomorrow I'll start one of my biggest challenges: Hungarian classes! I really want to learn that language! Let's see if I can do it! Wish me luck!

And don't forget: We should never kill our will and motivation.

Plug in baby

I've always made a bit of fun of this lyrics, even if they are from my favourite band. And this is actually one of my favourite songs ever, but only now I feel the dark side of the words that are sang. It's like a funny way of saying some truth you wanted but couldn't say. So enjoy, the lyrics and music of the day! ;)

I've exposed your lies, baby!
The underneath is no big surprise!
Now it's time for changing...
And cleansing everything...
To forget your love!

My plug in baby
Crucifies my enemies
When I'm tired of giving!

My plug in baby
In unbroken virgin realities
Is tired of living

Don’t confuse,
Baby, you're gonna lose your own game!
Change me, replace the envying
To forget your love!

And I feel your loving,
Mine is gone!
And I’ve been in trouble...

Bulletproof Cupid

What a weekend my friends!
The pirate party was such a big success! I was expecting something really good, but it was even better than all I could imagine! Once again, let me tell you I'm proud of us in the Party Committee! The trips committee will appreciate our profit as well I'm pretty sure! Let us just not go to Portugal please!
The party was special in many aspects. For example, I learnt how to do a new shot and I learnt how it is like to be working in a bar, "performing" the art of mixing! And a perky job it is! Let's say everybody really notices you when you're the person doing the drinks (now I know what my barman friends used to say!). I was also impressed with the amount of "strangers" that decided to join us and how many of them and of us trainees came with costumes! Some people had really nice disguises! I myself tried a mixture of Jack Sparrow with Tupac ahah, one surprise I had was the compliments on the eyeliner, odd :P
But well not everything was perfect, the dj could have been a bit better (although he played one muse song by my request - I got the power, huh!). But the real problem about the dj was that at the end of the night the owner of the bar asked for a round of applause (in order to end the night, it's common here) and that way the dj thinks he was good.. It's like when you do something bad and no one has the courage to tell you that wasnt a good thing to do, so you continue to do it thinking you are right, but anyway, if we hire him again, we'll give him some tips! But I had more joy than disappointaments, and to them I'd just say: I'm glad I'm talented enough to just not care! Now, I'm already planning the next party, gonna gather my committee soon!
And that's it for the party... If you want more details.. Join us the next one in April ;)

Pirate Party!

Today is the day!
Let's all dress up as pirates and conquer the night!

"you'll walk home from the party drunk on bacardi and listening to the voices that lie to you nightly and make you sorry for something"

Sober

And this is the final part of the poem triology I've written in March, hope you enjoy it. No matter what, memories will prevail.

The last matinée

Fear is on your side
And so you run,
And so you hide.

You can't go on living on your fears
Because you'll lose your heart,
You'll end up in tears.

I thought our chemistry was real,
It seemed to me it was impossible to conceal,
So why do you try so hard to smother this emotion?
Why throw me away and leave me to drown in this ocean?
I'm already lost on your salty waves...
Can I at least tell you what my soul craves?

We could be prince and princess...
You know I'm a dreamer
Hence there's no need to confess.

We could defy the gods...
We could win this bet against all the odds.

But, oh, how you sway...
Is this a game you want to play?

So give me your reasons why,
I need you to testify.
Although no matter what you'll say
My feelings won't change or go away.
And though now my words are frail,
They're still here following your trail.

I won't give up on the dream,
One day I'll sweep you off your feet
And then we'll be complete...

The end

3 libras

If i could be one song today I'll definitly be this one...

"Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name
In your recollection
Down among a million same

Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed and passed over
When I've looked right through
See you naked but oblivious
And you don't See Me

But I threw you the obvious
Just to see if there's more behind
the Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy
Here I am expecting
just a little bit Too much from the wounded
But I see, see through it all
And see through
See you
So I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs
behind the Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy

Oh well
Oh well
Apparently nothing
Apparently nothing at all"

Symmetry

We all have ghosts. Sometimes they are here to scare us, to taunt us, some other times they are nothing more than memories that we either love or hate (or both). Anyway they will only appear if we want them to (consciously or unconsciously). They might appear just as a blurry image, they might be far, or they might be just beside us telling us all the secrets we were craving to know, just like in Hamlet's play. Sometimes they appear during daylight, others are creatures of the night with vampire alter-egos, some struck us while we are daydreaming, others have a home in our nightmares at night. But no matter how fond or how scared we are from this ghosts they are a reminder of something we left behind and it's only up to us to decide if we let them live or if we should kill the ghost someone left behind. I find ghosts entertaining, but I'm getting a bit tired and bored by their existence...
"Did I really see you or was it a dream?"

Tongue tied

Today I find it hard to share my thoughts because my words don't seem to find their way. So today I offer you just a song, for I have no words left to say.

Just go on being you

Someone once asked me if I was an idiot for believing in some things I apparently should not. I answered with a no. I'm just a dreamer.

Until the next life

Sometimes life is like a television game show. You have to answer many questions, you always have multiple choices, they say they'll offer you something, they say you're unlucky for not having won, they say you can always try again. But the worst part is when you are winning. Seriously. Because you've done everything the right way, you said the right words, you used your tricks, you were focused, and it was clear you were going to the final and so you did. And there you are, knowing it all, or so you'd think, so sure about what you were going to say and decide. You don't even need to know what your options are because you are so sure of what you want. And so the host asks you one final time: "Is that you want to do? No doubts?" and without even blinking your eyes you just say the most confident yes of your whole life. Seconds later you realize you've lost it all. You don't know how or why, it makes no sense to you, still doesn't, but, after all, It was the wrong choice, or so they make you think. And for now you walk away, still thinking about the reasons and if it was really your fault. But the most important question remains: "although you've lost, do you still think it was right choice? would you do the same thing again?". You pick your stuff up the floor, you put your coat on, you close the door beyond you and you just say goodbye without looking back. at least for now...

"Don't throw me away... Am I weak for saying that I needed you?"

Creeped out by the crypt!

Today we went to Metz. It was all about churches, crypts, and so on. Could have been better, it was rainy as it gets. Anyway it was fun, as always! With the right people everything is fun! And tonight... Two parties on the way! So I hope I survive.. ;)

Hold the line!

Today, celebrating the fact that I have a new LCD screen to use with my broken laptop, I decided to re-watch some old episodes of Scrubs and I specially enjoyed the final episode of the 3rd season. It ends with a very good monologue from JD and a very good soundtrack, eight days a week, by the beatles!

"I guess that in the end things seldom work out the way you expect.
Sometimes fate is on your side, other times, well, you have kind of sealed your own fate.
Either way you have to trust that whatever is supposed to happen will happen."

Adieu Marseille!

Je suis super content aujourd'hui! Je veux dire: Adieu Marseille, adieu mes amis! ahah! La victoire!! C'est ravissant!

Palace of mirrors

Today I'll start with a note to myself: Need to stop looking to every single object/building/car where I can see my reflection. I'll get in trouble someday ahah.

Oh well, yesterday was Saint Patrick's day and I realized a strange thing: some people need these excuses to drink! C'mon! Haven't you heard that it's Christmas whenever a man wants it to be? So, it can be Saint Patrick's whenever a man wants as well! Think about it.

Second note to self: It doesnt matter how much crap you say, be strong and remain sober :x ahah

Good news about today: It's not cold!!

Bad news: time to work...

Narcotic

I've been finding new addictions and I've been also renewing old ones, not all of them are good but they all make me have fun or make me feel just fine. But none of them are that bad, don't be misguided by the title! I'm just a pleasure seeker looking for new domes where I can make my heart pound twice as fast! And yesterday night I found one of my new pleasure domes for the coming months of that I'm sure. Name of the place: Liquid. You can go there, sit on the couches, having a beer, talking with friends and listening to live jazz bands. Does it get any better after a working day? And talking about work... here I go again!

Spread your love like a fever

Today I was on auto pilot mode. It's nicer to put it this way when in fact I was more in a zombie mode. At least I felt inspired. And so I'll share my new text.

Apocalypse

Our worlds collide.
With fully loaded and driven hearts
We crave for unknown seductive darts.

Our worlds collapse.
And so we meet in the chorus of a song
That this time the gods decided not to play wrong.

Our worlds tremble.
We'll share this neverending dance
That we promised ourselves in our first glance.

But the air changed tonight...

I feel I was led astray,
I'm what's left of a cigarette crushed against the ashtray.
Doubts are creeping in and out
And here I lay looking for the right words to shout.
Sadly I don't know if you're still so unaware,
Because honestly it seems to me that you know but just don't care.

Yet let us wait for our worlds to clash once again.
Then we'll know what path we'll follow,
Then we'll know if we can call the future our tomorrow.

And so I fall into you...

the end.

The magic belt / Trier / The rescue of the element - Weekend edition

Sleeping is still an option unavailable. It's just like when you want to buy something that is already sold out and no matter what and how you try it you won't get it. But no harm done. Yet.

Anyway let us catch up on the weekend! Friday night I've been to a kind of party that I haven't been for a while, some sort of a WG party (for those who know what that is). However... It could have been better, but it had very nice moments as well. One of them is now known as: The magical belt! I have this belt for so long and only now I've discovered why I bought it. can you guess why? well it turns out that my belt opens beer bottles! How great is that? I won't tell you more, but you can imagine (cough)...

The next day was the Trier trip day. A very nice saturday in my "Zweite Heimat". I think I'll go there a couple of times more during this months, it's worth it. And the german beer... hmm... how I've missed it! (when I have the photos I'll share one or two here, I need to fix my camera, so I'm counting on the others this far).

Finally the rescue of the element... My mother always calls me asking for random things like: "oh, how's the weather?"; "how's the food?"; "you have a roof, right?"; and one of the most common ones: "any problems with the laundry?"; Well, yesterday I had a "braveheart" fight with the detergents and machines and whatever you want to name just so I could save one t-shirt. But I did! Lesson learned: always listen to your mother when she says something about the laundry. It will save you sometimes. Strange, hun?

And well a new week has just started and now it's time to work...

Far thy well!

Allegro Vivace

Fast, lively and bright! That's how I'd sum up the week! A very "Allegro Vivace" one! Or "Agitato Prestissimo" even! Anyway. Last week I went to Brussels as you know and tomorrow I'm going back to Germany! I haven't been there since I left in 2007 after my Erasmus and although I won't be going to Aachen or Leipzig ("my cities") there's still this feeling of coming back "home" even if for just a little while. But that's only tomorrow... life's still on track I'd say but at a very increasing pace and tonight... there's another party! It's good to be here! I'll rejoin our virtual corner on monday. Have a nice weekend you all!

Red lights and signs are nothing but suggestions!

No matter what you do in life there always seems to be some kind of rules (or as they sometimes say - guidelines). Some people accept them without even questioning whether they are right or wrong, they just do as they are told in a robotic way. Of course there are rules we really need to follow, like at work, that's understandable, but in some other cases in our lifes some of these rules are there just to numb you out, to take away your will or criativity. So let me say that to me life is just like crossing the street: you can cross it even if the light is red, it's up to you, it's nothing more than a "suggestion", you just need to be careful, but you are free.

Anyway, let me also share that in the first 8 week days of March I was offered free alcohol in 7 of them. Don't know yet if this is a good thing or not, but I won't complain that's for sure!

Yesterday we in the communications committee (yes, I'm on this one too, am I megalomaniac? most likely...) started to plan our magazine! Pretty excited about the idea! So as you can see there's so much to do here and so little time to do all we want to do... Tell me, how will I cope? Work, friends, parties, sports, magazines, teaching and learning languages, etc...! I sure I'm excited about all this, just hope my body has the strenght to be fit each and every second! (Cause I'm still not sleeping... I'll try though, I promise! even if it'll be just one more hour per day.)

Just like Alice in Wonderland

The days are cold and though the sun shines in the sky above there's not much we can take from it. The wind blows its icy breathe from all directions and it is impossible not to feel your bones shouting for a sweet and warm sandy beach somewhere. But this is no time for daydreaming, got work to do! Still i want to share with you that yesterday I saw Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland! A very nice movie indeed! (But has Burton made any bad movie?!) And it inspired me to write something, not just the movie of course, but let's say it's a metaphorical way to express myself using its content. (and the rest is a secret of course!) Here it goes (probably it's not that good, but you'll be the judges of it!):

Down the rabbit hole

She was lost,
She was dreamy,
She was so unaware.
She had to go although she didn't know where.
But there were no clouds in her sky,
Her halo was as bright as the fireflies that flew by.
Oh, if she knew the world was on the palm of her hand...
However, she couldn't yet find her way,
Just like Alice in Wonderland.

Yet there's so much you would know if you listened to her sighs,
and so much you would realize just by looking into her eyes,
Because she's still a canvas in need of new dreams,
I might be mistaken but I heard so in her screams.
And still she looks for the perfect weapon for the perfect crime,
not realizing she'll soon run out of time.

But I'll be here keeping the rain away,
I'll be here until the end so I can listen to everything she has to say,
For I don't want to be a memory that would soon be sold,
I want to be her favourite character in the best story she has ever told.
Yet for now we go our own way,
As she remains lost, dreamy and unaware,
At least for one more day.

The end.

Into the wild - phase I

So here we go...

As promised here's my new blog where you can find out (almost) everything about my new european adventure! (dark secrets will not be shared here, be aware! Unless I'm writing under the influence of some sort of substance that changes my reasoning) This time around I'm in the Grand Duchy of Luxembourg (sounds posh aye!) for a traineeship in the European Commission for the next five months. There's already so much to tell but let us start from the beginning...

First of all, this will be a place for all: friends from back home, friends around the world and also my dear fellow trainees! You are welcome in my humble virtual home!

The story begins like this...

I'm sure you are all aware that I ain't that much of a sane person, so instead of coming here by plain.. I came by bus! 27 "amusing" hours amongst the strangest of characters. Oh well, I'm used to it.. after the interrails, cruises, trips, and so on, I'm pretty much up to face anything with a smile on my lips. And so I arrived. Most people are living by themselves, some are living in dodgy areas, some are even paying a fortune for a small room.. well, I think I was lucky! Seriously! I'm living with friends, we're 9 portuguese (some from Castelo Branco! we're everywhere, like a plague!) in a fancy little "villa" in the suburbia, and guess what? I even have sportv there! (Benficaaaa!) One other good thing is that my flatmates all work in bars, they are the kings of the night here, so they've been introducing me to Lux's nightlife. I won't go into details here, let me just say my body is enjoying and complaining at the same time (you figure it out, not hard to understand why ;P ).

Let us go on.

First week of work.

First day. I walked into a room where's like 5 men and 40 women! (and I won't comment on that, my thoughts will remain a secret on the subject ahah!). We're already a strong group that will most likely be very a close one, or so I hope. More on the subject on days to come ;)

By the way I've already some nicknames here like "the tour guide" or "the party guy"! (not bad ones aye!)

Second day: Trip to Brussels! It was very nice indeed, got a chance to meet new people, also to see friends from the "past" like Marouane, Sofia and Matteo (thank you both by the way, once again, for letting me stay at your place)! We've stayed there for 3 days and then back "home".

Fifth day: I met my adviser and I was very pleased and lucky I'd say to have him as a mentor here! (I call him "the godfather"!) Pretty sure we'll get along and we'll work and have fun during the months to come! But not everything is about work (gladly!) and I'll be on the party committee! (It will be nice to arrange the partys, it's usually a job I know how to do!) So.. Party time! (I'll also be in the communications and sports - and I'll probably be teaching portuguese). But well, you know me, always the party guy! I guess it was clear to everybody here as well ;) Carpe diem my friends, carpe diem!

Weekend: Parties, Movies, Football! what more could I ask for? (More to come on the next episodes!)

And so this is my first post on the new adventure! If you have something you'd like to know about how things are going here, please be free to ask (don't be afraid! ahah)

PS: I've been writing poetry again... (but that's a story for another episode ;p )

Cheers, hugs and kisses to you all wherever you are!

Allez Luxembourg!

PS 2: and now... Hot chocolate time! It can't be beer all the time, right!?

The end.